Yesterday I picked out a rune stone that told me that Tuesday would be a gift. I was a touch skeptical, and as Tuesday wore on I began to think that I should seriously take up another hobby, like maybe knitting or drilling for oil.
But then, as the night was drawing to a close, I had something happen to me that made me reconsider.
Now I must admit I am not a perfect person (I know amazing hey, but it’s true!), and one of my biggest flaws is my ability to find almost anything funny and to write about it, sometimes without taking other people’s feelings into consideration, too intent on sharing the story to think that hey, some people might actually get hurt or offended by the way I write it or how I word it. Tact hasn’t been my strongest point and I admit I still have a long way to go before I get that right! Though when I am confronted I am only too ready to apologize and grovel for forgiveness and try make amends.
But I can say one thing. It is unintentional! I can look myself in the eye (with the help of a mirror), and tell myself that, yes, Jovvi, what were you thinking?!? But. as well, you didn’t mean to hurt anyone’s feelings and basically you unintentionally did something really daft, LEARN FROM IT!!
And that’s the big difference for me!!
It’s unintentional!
From personal experience I can say that to be intentionally attacked by someone is one of the most emotionally painful things you can go through! To see someone write things with the express hope that it will hurt you and leave you feeling ghastly about yourself and your self worth? To know that they are being cruel with no other reason then to hurt and maim and wound… it’s terrifying!! Whatever else I can do, or how much I might dislike someone, that I will never do!
~~~***THAT I WILL NEVER DO!!!***~~~
And because of that, and perhaps only that, I am still able to look myself in that mirror and forgive my sometimes awfully tactless covering on a subject and I can still feel that deep down, maybe, just maybe, I am still a good person!
So perhaps that rune stone was right after all?
Still I’d have preferred a box of socks as the gift… :P
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